now.. in school (: steal time to use blogspot.

kae.. days been so tiring. slept at 4am 3 nights back cus cant finish homework.. hai yo.. singapore mugging nation.

Met markCher and claRence on tues to pass them underground magic effect. Wha.. so;me shop tried to sell them $100 for this effect.

then yesterday (thurs) met Justina from Cresent gals sec. new magician but seem to know quite a lot of new effects.

tmr i'm gonna try change leagues to bikes.

Ok i'm going back to sleep before lesson starts.

(:

Spate of recent events have been occuring and many of you ask me to explain what caused the death of a person so close to me.

Here's my reply to all of you. It is also something which i have uncovered recently.

The greatest weakness of the one who torments her is the lack in trust and believe in the one who loved him most. In a world of confusion, he who cheated naturally became suspicious that the other party was cheating. The focus on suspicion rather than the actual desiring ahrdwork around, lead to the great fall of a supposed realistic eternal relation.

The tormentor then confirms his thoughts with the relation he assumes his buddy has with another, but little was thought of the reciprocate of the reality, that his closest one was infact planting a bug in the tormented to ensure the safety of the tormentor.

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period.. if you have no idea what the above is about,dont worry.. its mainly for those why really knew what happened to me for the past 3 years? yeah..

anyway.. life has been stressful..very..
and there's andrew whom i told i was too busy to chat and he called me and said i needed a rest.
Its beyond me..sorry.
I'm sleeping 2-6am each day.. talk more and it'll shorten my sleep.
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there's this school student who called me complaining about some guy in school who is spreading blatant insulting news about her..I wish i could approach this guy who is such a pain in the ***.. seriously.. cus i know the truth and i know this guy is lying so much to get his way.. and yeah.. he's been lying so much for years, so he's really good at it.. his friends buy his lies.. so poor girl..

anyway hope things get better (:

An equal fight has been established (:

right.. monday had some e test which i studied for 3 days and i just passed! :(
but alright.. many ppl failed. If i'm not wrong only 1 person got 70, 1 got 80 2 got 50 and the rest got 40 and 30s.

today went bank.. sat for 1 hour plus! Got some new thing to make money grow.
Hmm.. not much growth.. but decide to just put in some money in to let it grow.
right.. been tiredly studying and so gonna sleep now//

short post:
Please clean your booger when you're going out of house.
Please visit toilets or at least find some way to check during meal times if there's booger in ur nose!

K.. hope this msg reaches everyone even those i dont know.. for singaporeans.. booger means.. nose dirt..hokkien = pee sai.

yah..once in a while need to remind ppl to clean up nia. wonder why ppl dun quite care if their nose is filled with dirt..isnt it hard to breathe?

A post random as may be to those who dont know me for more than 4 years..

I've been thinking..
on my last event, ive been thinking that of all the world i've finally found the dumbest of its kind. But i cant blame it. it wasnt of natural marriage that hence was born. Unnatural births have always had lots of contemplation on them doing and functioning just as well as others.

This time, i had the great privilege to work with one of such sort.
1) cant remember things which are explained even tho you explain more than 2 years repeatedly daily.
2) can remember a location even if its been seen around 10 of more times.
3) Doesnt have a mind on ones own.
4) due to (3), characteristic and attitude is a direct clone of the parent.
5) (4) implies that the parent had shot gun. means cocked up and unright attitude. so implies ones attitude to be cocked up too.
6) doesnt know basic skills like observing where things are placed. (similar to 1 and 2)

k i need study lia0 tmr exam (:

chaos..everyone should have a good rest..

3 more to make a win (: the one who guess win what right will get a free KFC meal (:

kae.. with so many ppl filling my mail box asking me to make a comparison on the schools.. i'm here to post! BUTTTTTTTTTTT.. not on the schools..

heres to comment on the recent PSLE math paper.. news been spreading..
1) students cry
2) parents complain

my take on this issue:
1) If you're wanting calculators and yet the difficulty level unchanged; oh please.. get real! infact recently a Pri 6 girl when asked by me: whats 12+6, she had to search her bag for a calculator to solve it.. haha.. and she aint some EM3 student.. what are we going towards these days?

2) If you're thinking its the end of the world; please go learn on a bell curve in math. cus students in psle are graded based on a bell curve. It really doesnt matter how hard the paper is, the better students will still score better than those who arent that good.. -.-""

sigh.. i am certain these parents are singaporeans.. cant be overseas ppl.. for one reason.. the current generation of parents come from the USA WANNABE generation.. so they think that speaking up is what needs to be done. added with their seriously over enthusiastic singaporean nature of kiasu 'must be first thinking', they end up complaining without thinking.

You see thats one problem with many people. We tend to think wow.. USA ppl do this.. we must follow.. but hey.. USA ppl arent that critical over issue on studies or petty issues.. so effectively if you want to adopt their style, at least do it correctly! *peace.. (:

Check out the schools in Singapore schools today, yesterday and many days past (:

schools we'd compare:
1) St Andrew's Secondary
2) presbyterian high
3) Monfort school
4) Mayflower Secondary
5) NUS High school
-> kae later.. dinner nw byes

hitting up the 1st blog. (:

Life's been great.. great or maybe i'm just lying to myself?
Recently been up and about in magic again.. nothing that new.. but the new stuff are cool with some overly cool yet costly effects.

Lots of flash backs of what have been spoken to me before keep coming to me.. Its like a voice not letting me get away with ignoring God. Darn it! But i'll give a fair consideration on this issue. I think its pretty straight forward.. if its true its true.. if not true then not true.. i dont want to run after religion just because it makes me feel good.

Feel the world.. make it a better place. For you and for me and the entire human race.
There are ppl dying. what are we doing!?

Everyday i'm seeing so many issues of A like B, B like C and A try to stop B from being with C. lols.. i could try writing a thesis on whether its possible for people not to get involved in such issues.

Right.. been studying whole day.. now break. dinner, study again. monday exam! :'( lols.. actually loving exams.. just hate the outcome of it! unless i do well DUH! haha

I'm thinking of a code name for the latest pain in my heart. The good news if that its not ended.. A higher order is at work and it will take years.. i'll have to wait. The bad news is it HURTS! >:(

kae.. whats new.. the trend!
Trend changes in words (approx)..
15 years back: hey hello how are you.. haha nevermind be back later bla bla i love you =( what?
10 years back: heyss! helos! hw r u? lol.. nvm brb afk noob lor/loh/liao i love you! :( wat?
05 years back: heyys! helos! hiiiiii.. hw arre euu? lools.. nvm brb luhh luh iee lurb you! :((( whad?
00 years back: hiiiii.. heloooooo.. haha hoho.. nvm luhh i love you T^T wad?

The winner of the lamest contest isssssssssssssssssssss.................................... T^T <- haha.. its sooooo off! its suppose to mean sad face.. but the eyes, the nose etc just so dont look like it..

The longest contestant award is i love you! <- its been around for 20 years with little variation..

Next.. i'll post some comments on some schools around Singapore.. sneak peak of whats good and not good. (:

just for nicole

niCOle.. you know my fav names are COLE and BAILEY !! (:

hey.. heres to abait the lag on your poddy.

here's the clearer interpretation to: yah.. ok let me say this to you.. no normal dog which you wack will shut its mouth till it dies (:

Explanation:
1)in simplier form... nature is nature.. its not how much you do, but from the sign of things, you can guess the outcome without trying.

2) example.. someone loves to murder people.. its not whether kenneth can make possible of the impossible.. the second you try to meet him to ask him not to kill others, he kills you and you're dead..t hen he goes about killing others.. it doesnt stop..

3) the main problem in secondary school which students just dun understand.. is that in secondary, every one thinks that boys think the same as girls.. or at least SIMILAR.. which iis the big problem.. haha. guys start to walk manly.. or start to walk straight etc.. (some guys la ) thinking thhat girls like it.. cus a guy would love to see a girl doing ncie things etc.. but what impress a girl is not that.. and hence no matter what a guy does, the girl is not impressed.
then the guy ask her friends how to impress her. but still doesnt work.. why?? cus ok.. if you see a guy setting a bike on flames you'd prob cheer.. but if you see a girl do it.. you're like WTH.. wha.. alot of guts lor.. So its different.

when you do wat her friends tell you can impress her, it still doesnt work.. cus you're a guy not a girl.. explain very clear to you liao

haha
and psychology tells me that a male psychology will still insist on trying and not giving up.. so.. haha.. all the best luhh (:

the sleeping of time
vanishes at the blink of ones eye
the last breath
sees no good bye

as the sands slip thru the dowsing wind
the sound of not one whistle is heard
alone in the vast space
flying endlessly like a huge bird

another day passes
another hour is gone
creases on our faces appear
like vines in the valleys

nothing stands
nothing exist
nothing anymore
I am absorbed to the darkness of this lonely world.
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last nite sleep so late doing some homework.. graded! then during lesson some china guy stood up and solved the whole question using a method unknown to us. maybe he felt he was smart.
I really think he is such a jerk. Isn't a practice session suppose to practice something we learnt?

Today went to find neg. ion generator. couldnt get it.. why are things in singapore so hard to find? Anyway, went to betty, showed her my magix box thingy.. she compared and for once alice actually listened to me to shut that box and not let ppl man handle the box. anyway.. mr goh called again. what an annoying time i had. once again he could hear nothing but the blast of an emergency bell! Then kept trying to sell me so many things.. keep saying $150. Does he think i am working or what!? Havnet i told him that i am not even willing to spend more than $100 for anything!? yet the box he wanted to sell wont go below $190. k.. am annoyed.. just getting it for wo de nicole.. (haha.. hey nicole.. i've got like ppl asking me if you're my girlfriend.. haha. k.. dun worry told them you're a GUY! haha.. MAN! haha.. very MAN de.. actually they read your tag to me then say the way you reply is how a girl reply xD so not my fault! dun worry la. i know you guy can le)

then kerlynn just msged me..complain tones of things.. life's choices are mounted on horses which we control. (: hope that speaks to you. Thanks for actively tagging and adding..and bringing life to my msn, phone and blog..

then have zack.. seem to talk little these days nia.. but a fine friend he is. Infact, if there is one person you'd ask me to trust.. i'd say no one but him.. he shared with me a thought weeks back.. he said something like "you learn you can never trust anyone" how right he is.. the failures i have in life have always been due to too much trust and believe in people. Believing in those whom their parents, siblings, school mates look down on. I always believed they would be able to stand one day, look back and be proud of their achievements. I always believed they would in all i have done, stand for whats right and help me when i needed help.. but experiences have brought me to conclude that "they are a generation saying, yes i will definitely stand for whats right." but when tough times come, they fall faster than the river waters in the world.

then have josh.. had a nice chat with him..suddenly was an accident near my window.. was shocked.. this girl had her body..eww.. k.. skip this part.. but josh tag so little so.. i gonna not say anything to him now! hahaha :P post more then hear more k? (:

ok the night is abrewing. I shall retreat to my comforts. May the day be blessful and blissful to all of you.

am a useless no body living in a world of so many bodies. (:

i realise my heart is fused with many codes. Inner security locks chained, tied, melted and fused to form an unbroken link. not one acid will unleash the least of the locks. Waiting all for one day when the light shines back on my face. When glory and honor means something in the lives of those whom we pass.
is the name of the song! listen. cus this post is made with sentiments matching that song.

today met nicole again. Was kinda fun.. was kinda shocked when he (cant say she le.. nicole kao pei kao bu me lia0..lolx..) told me the box we bought yesterday costed only $60! thankful to reach the shop to find it was a super bad version sold.. So if that bad thing cost 60.. then ours which is a multitude times better wont be surprising to cost 100+dollars.

ah goh called me.. tell me vj sold someone $265. haha then want to sell me his 2nd hand thing at $250. -.- say never use before. was so hard to talk.. cus he could hear me.. hai ya shld i buy the box from him? so ex.. then nicole say wanna buy.. lols.. i have money also think hard if wanna buy. he no money then just confirm wanna buy.. haha rich la.

so thinking. tmr i go get the eletric touch thingys then maybe see if better de box can improvise mah. can.then change liao can sell higher price. think put there no body wants de. its like.. maybe old ppl cant see la.. if not sure can see de.

k.. oh promised nicole to blog about him.. er er er...

k.. was on my bike la.. then i look at the mirror keep seeing him looking about then later the eyes grow so small.. like eye pain or something.. was wondering whats wrong.. then later i tot.. he was squinting! hahaha.. funny luhh. so at bishan mrt i pointed say thats bishan mrt.. then suddenly his eyes went small again.. then kena scolded by me.. lols.. ask him not to squint.. squinting is the number 1 reason why ppl eye sight worsen.. so dun wan him to later become blind ma.. hmm.. so nicole dun angry k? its guan xing ni de. (:

ok gdnite to you.. i'm off to do my work..

pressure rocks la.. super nice effect. shock like a few ppl lia0..

School tmr! must score during test.. ok bye.. studying now! (:

The pride of man is the reason for his downfall.
The ego of man is the reason for his clouded views.

Today spent time with Nicole.. oh isnt she lovely? lols.. the thing about this name is that it's bigender.. so can say he or she :P

Went kenneth's then he was there again with his heavily gel hair. didn't get anything from him.. nicole and i saw decks, then moved to solo's. Solo's was great.. darn it you say.. wth is avriel typing! all the jargons.. k.. kenneth's solo's etc refer to owner names of the shops we went. haha..

Solo was like "hey how can i help you today" then can tell he wasnt that interested.. we must have disrupted his heavenly peace...period. nicole asked about this metoroid thingy.. 100+ dollars i think.. So costly.. k.. so we looked at decks again, saw some cool gadgets..then went off from the tranquil felt place.

had lunch.. ate number 8. nicole wanted number 10. -.-.. haha.. sorrie luHh. i know 10 is hong kong noodle but 8 is dunno whad thing.. *sudden change to poor english..

k.. so went VJ's alamak.. that guy forever closed dhe. there was this aged guy there.. was wondering if he aged due to waiting for vj to open shop. anyway.. we waited too.. goh, the aged man showed me a couple of his quite cool effects. Nicole tot he performed urgh.. i didn't felt he was good either. but it was entertaining.

practiced some flying stuff.. then goh seemed curious. i wonder what he knows.. gimmicked stuff? yeah. cus he seemed soo gimmicky.. everything about and on him were gimmicked.. including his face.. was a plastic sheet of .. k.. talking too much nonsense.. so gimmick was his name..

finally after WTHHHHHHHHHHHHH amt of time.. VJ let us in the shop to sell us this uber costly thingy... no exposure.. nicole's little baby? haha.. super good effect la.. k.. anyway.. sensed some form of lying occuring in the shop.. didn't like it.. but just got out then went towards betty!

Betty and alice in wonderland..haha reminds me.. T wonder full of wonder.. hahahha.. k.. imagine someone walks up to you and say.. Hi. i am Bond. James Bond. (from movie james bond)or i am martin. Ricky martin (from singer ricky martin) it sounds kinda cool.. but can you imagine someone who has such a longgggg.... funnyyyy.. starter phrase?

Hi i am Dick.. Dick the one that goes hard and soft. -.-""
hi i am alice.. alice wonder from wonder land.
hi i am kenneth.. kenneth wonder full of wonder.
hi i am peter.. peter pizza loves to eat pizza..-.-
hi i am jane.. jane the one who dance under the rain.
hi i am betty.. betty plus sign the one you see on batteries.
david blaine..the one who is lame.
these side names drive me crazy.. love to hear them.. haha..

k so went betty.. betty was was was.... *cries* closed! darn it.. must have been aunt alice la.. saying tired etc. haha.. always complain dhe.

k.. then no choice.. tired liao. go home. then webcasted.. chatty with little bro.. then he sleep.

then i bloggin.. then i wanna sleep le.. tmr habe school.. urgh.. tired life.

i need to find a bigger group. a bigger group who are able to spend time out and are good friends. (:

k.. Goh.. here i come! give me good price on the boxy.. hey i starting magic shop soon le.. i buying off everything limited.. muahahhaa...

nites world. i gonna play polly pockets now.. if not cant sleep.. hahaha

brand new and improved battle plan

where is the above phrase from? (: guess..

anyway since his death.. life have been improving but still too much gloom remains in my heart. Just too heavy to fathom. Unseperable.. and news of all those lies just seeps in like acid in the soul. Why would humans of such possible kind soul do this? Why?

Today went out with kenneth after exam. Went to betty, then wand before an expensive dinner at shaw tower. there we chat about magic, coin magic, card magic, showed nicole 'behind your back' magic.

tmr must get ready balloon ask nicole show me pressure! then am going to create electric touch, then maybe gecko? its kinda close to raven i reckon'.

Then anyway was on bike towards yishun.. got so lost so many times. thank God nicole enjoyed the windy ride. Was like.. oh darn.. later get scolded for being so blur xD

Right.. list of things to cover as of today:
6 hours lesson
1 hour CS tutorial
2 hour 09 tutorial
4 hour 06 scilab
3 hour CS lab

monday:
09 tutorial
npcc meeting 1-2
09 lab 2-5

tuesday,wed, fri
tuition?

Alright. Night at the museum 2 just ended.. so gonna reside to disney land now.. happy sunday to all (: